Explorations!

I went and visited with my friend Sabrina and met her mate and his name is Jerrik and we got along great. I also had to take a bath cuz of Tarin but afterwards I got all dried off and went to bed with Sabrina. Oh oh and I got to see Telina, the princess of Atlantis, we're still really good friends cuz I saved her husband once but she apparently broke up with him which is kinda sad.

On a trip

I went and visited ______ today. She was kinda mean but I still like her just cuz. We played for a while til I decided to take a nap and then I went and played with my friend ______ and met her mate and his name is ______ and we got along great. I also had to take a bath cuz of _______ but afterwards I got all dried off and went to bed with _____.

Kind of a boring day

All I really did today was talk with Mes and then I went to go find Phoenix to see if he could make mean Mes(good Mes) stop picking on nice Mes(evil Mes) He wasnt home so I went home and went to bed.

So many baths.... the horror... the horror

I went and talked to Kiya and Pirotesse today and they were really nice to me but then Kitya decided I needed a bath and dragged me upstairs and Pirotesse helpes her even though I did escape once but I got cold being all wet and nakie so I went back and let them finish.

Then Kiya tricked me into making a mess and trheatened to wash me again and I was really miserable but Blue saved me from her. However then Blue dumped water over me and I bit her. and I went and cuddled up with Pirotesse. I think I made her feel good because she's never really had a family but she wants to and she says she likes my company because I always have a positive outlook and care about people and I want to help her.

She talked to me all night and I told her one day I was sure she'd have a family and she said for now she would just practice on me and she even managed to rock me to sleep and held me til she decided to wake me up so I wouldnt oversleep and be groggy. She had to go after a while so I went to Willow and asked her to bind me to Mes so Mes wont hate me when I get older. Willow says she might do it and then she carried me to her room and held me til Ifell asleep.

My family is bloody crazy

I was talking to my cousin Dosara today and all of a sudden her mother in law, my aunt Alexis came in and Dosara mentioned to her that she had seen Alexis' father rip someone's heart out. Naturally I made a note to beat him up when I got older but Alexis apparently thinks that heart ripping outs are peachy keen and she even yelled at me for it before dragging Dosara off.

Then Ethan came downstairs soaked in blood. When I pointed out to him that he might clean up he flipped out and started acting all suspicious and yelling at me for questioning him over why he was covered in someone else's blood. He took Dosara somewhere and I fear for both of them...

Another wedding

Well I talked to Mes today and she said we can still be friends when I'm back to normal but she won't be able to trust me. I'm sure there's some kind of way to fix that though cuz I really dont want things to be different between me and her like they are for me and Siona now. Also I started ignoring Grace, cuz she's nuts.

I went to see Willow and I actually made her laugh today it was weird. I think I should introduce her to Mes cuz they both seem to hate mages and maybe I could get Willow to give me the same bond with Mes as I have with her so Mes would trust me more. Willow's doing a lot better since I restored her sight so in general things are going pretty good.

Oh yeah and my aunt Alex married Alucard, who's some kind of vampire or something. Ithink people make waaaay too much about the whole vampire thing. Any being that can be killed by taking an afternoon stroll is not all that cool. I went home with my cousin Dosara and we played for a while and I had to hold still so she could comb my hair but it wasnt that bad and then I fell asleep in her arms.

Poor momma

Well for one thing I've decided that mom(Foxxy) will be momma and that mom(Lexi) will be mom. That way there won't be anymore confusion. Today I went to Drimnagh to participate in Diamond's wedding and coronation. It was really fun. Diamond is a friend I've had since I was really small and she had me carry the crown to her and I also told the guy in charge of it the lines in elven that a monarch is supposed to say at their corronation so I was a big help I think.

Like I said it was lots of fun and Diamond gave me a hug and I talked to her new husband a while and then went home. When I got home Grace was being mean to me and spouting some nonsense about her father being one of the Dunedain. I dont know where she got that from but its not likely. I told her so and she suddenly acted like she was dying and then she sent the shadows to attack me. Grace has issues.

Well my momma understood what happened so she wasnt too mad at me even though she did whack my butt cuz I tried to bite her for some reason but after that I settled down and we got to talking. She said she wants me to grow up again because seeing me like this makes her feel guilty that she cant be around to raise me and that she wasnt around much when I was a baby. I told her I didnt mind and that I loved her because she was around when she could be and we talked about some other stuff too but for the most part I just cuddled up with her and had a great night and I hope I made her feel better too.

I'm not very good at fighting anymore...

Well today I woke up and I was really cranky and Mirra, Siona's stupid bird, picked on me a lot and then Siona came in and yelled at me for fighting with her bird and we got in a huge fight cuz she wants me to be big again and I cant make that happen and she still wants to go out with me for some reason and I'm getting tired of it and then after we yelled at eachother for a while she threw two fireballs at me so I'm really mad at her now, especially since I couldnt even block them.

Grrr I hate my sister

Well I saw my sister Emily today and she's all smarty-pants like and stuff and she turns around everything I say or do and keeps asking me if I've learned my lesson and stuff and I hate her. She tricked my mom's dimwitted good twin into thinking I wanted to be a girl and now the good version of my mom dressed me in a pink dress and she keeps calling me Andrea. I'm going to stab Emily with a safety pin if can get my hands on one, we'll see how that goes tomorrow.

Yay! I actually completed a quest!

That's right, somehow despite being only about the size of a hobbit I got Willow to free her captive with Marquie's help and we both feel really good about it and Willow's being nicer now too. I talked to her and she didnt even hurt me or anything and then I went home and saw mom(Lexi).

She kept talking about killing Kirna and killing the fates and all this other mean stuff and she was drinking a new bottle of whiskey too and I really didnt like how she was being and finally she wandered off into the courtyard. Then I saw Marquie and we talked and she seemed really good. I also found out who it was that destroyed that village- Radamanthys. I thought he was kinda cool cuz he popped up talking about freedom and rebellion but now that I've seen what he does I really dont like him.

Me and Marquie went to my tower to avoid him and she brushed my hair and we played for a while until she took be back to the nursery and put me to bed. I woke up all wet and cranky and one of my sisters, this time Emilie (one of mom(Lexi)'s kids who she dosnt like) was there watching me.

I managed to escape the crib I was in and then she started making fun of me but not as badly as most people do and so I just threw a rattle at her. Then she blocked it and we kept fighting and I went over to bite her but before i could she mad the nannies snatch me up and spank me and when I finally got away she asked me if I learned anything from being small.

Shes one of those people who thinks theres a moral to everything that happens and I guess shes kinda right cuz i learned to behave better and depend on people and some other stuff too and told her that but she said i had to ask her to have one of the nannies change me and I didnt want to so instead she had the nannies punish me some more but they finally did stop and change me.

I settled down after that and tried to behave for her and stop crying. I still plan to get her and the nannies back, especially the two really evil ones, but I wont say anything about it til I have the chance. I probably shouldnt be mean to them anyhow I guess, maybe I am starting to quit being such a brat, scary!

Forgiveness is beautiful

Well I finally found out what happened to Marquie. The ghost tricked her into attacking a village that was full of innocent people and it nearly killed Marquie. She was so guilt ridden but I think I made her feel better. I told her that she wasnt a killer, that she didnt have the look of it in her eyes (I've seen it plenty )

We went and talked for a while and then I took her on a quest with me to free the kid that Willow captured. We didnt release him yet but Willow probably will cuz we scared her and Naoki pretty good. After that Marquie took me home and went to bed but stayed up and talked to my mom (Foxxy) and then my cousin Ethan decided to get married and asked me to be the ring bearer.

Then mom(Lexi) appeared and for some reason I had an accident all of a sudden but I had to ignore it til the wedding was over but then everyone was busy and there was noone to change me. After the whole thing was over both my parents had to leave to talk about how mom(Lexi) wants to kill the fates for some reason and there was noone left to help me and I was really miserable.

Naoki came by and yelled at me for being mean to Willow but she deserved it and hes not too scary or nothing. Then mom(Lexi) used telepathy to ask me to get her a drink and I was really glad to do it cuz I figured it she'd come get me afterwards. I got a bottle of whiskey and Ethan saw me with it and took it away so I stole it from him and started to sip from it just to show him that he couldnt stop me. He turned it into dwarven ale and I started coughing and gagging on it and then he shoved me through a portal to where my parents were.

Mom(foxxy) was really nice to me even though she was worried about how I still havnt gotten bigger. She changed me and after that mom(Lexi) started being all mean but mom(Foxxy... I need to come up with a better system of identification) yelled at her for it. Then I talked to mom(Foxxy) for a while and she said she still liked me like this even though she wants me to be big again so I wont get hurt as easily and I told her I'd try to behave just as well when I got bigger as I was now and she said if I didnt she'd make me even younger than I am now. Eep.

Eventually they decided to try to fix me but Kirna's spell was too strong and mom(Foxxy) ended up just rocking me to sleep instead. I woke up a while later and she was gone so I went home to the castle and talked to Nic. I told her whats been going on as best as I could and she was kinda worried.

She said she was worried becuase Velrik and Imoen and Eli all seemed to be busy and Igot sad because she didnt include me among them since I'm not able to fight though I normally would. I guess Nic just still thinks of me as a kideven when I'm an adult and I really shouldnt mind cuz its kind of sweet and its not like I act all old like Velrik and Imoen anyhow so maybe I should have a class of my own after all.

Not to say I dont like Velrik and Imoen. Even though I do owe them for what happened while Imoen was little. Honestly I dont know how Velrik could stand her at that age she was so evil! Oh wait yes I do he probably just stuck her in that playpen he put me in. Where was I? Oh yeah I eventually went to bed in Nic's room.

Not a very good day.

I played with Nic for a while today and then I saw Marquie and we talked for a while and I tried to help her out with this problem shes been having. Shes been being haunted by some kind of spirit that wants her to attack this village and I said she could test the spirit by seeing if it could enter my tower. She went off to do that while I went to bug Willow.

She took some poor boy prisoner and I'm going to help free him even if it means I have to take his place. It's really all I'm useful for now. Willow can make me unable to use my powers if she wants to so even if I was back in my regular body I couldn't fight her. She took me home and I got in a fight with Siona cuz she's infuriating and confusing and Willow was being mean to me too.

I messed with Athena a bit and then followed Willow back to her dungeon. She's interested in some guy hanging around the castle and I showed her what he looks like cuz shes blind and she was in a better mood after that and we both went to bed.

Another quiet day

I hung out with Marquie all day. She saw some sort of ghost that tried to lure her into some manner of crazt quest and I cautioned her against it until we can learn about the ghost. I think its a trap and I asked her to talk to Siona first. Grace tried to fix me but her potion didn't work so I'm still little.

I shot Angel with a slingshot and she cast some kind of spell that gave me diarhea so I'm really miserable now but Mera took care of me and made me feel a little better. I wish Imoen and Velrik were still around things always seem more interesting when they're here.

boredy boredy bored

I talked to Grace a while today and she was mean and she hurt me and Nic yelled at her for it and then Nic made her appologize and then I met an angel, one of the seven high angels actually and I helped him remember who he was and I think I'll see a lot more of him. And Grace is supposed to fix me soon and thats good cuz I dont much like being tiny anymore.

After that I went out to the forest and then I met some guy who had gotten hurt and Sona showed up and we played for a while and then I laid down to take a nap cuz I was kinda tired.

Ok, I think I have another mother...

I went out to the garden today and sat with Grace and she actually let me hug her and sat me on her lap and she was generally nice to me. She held me for a while and we talked about stuff and then I talked to Mes but she had to leave. I thought about the rangers I asked to fix up R's church and how they must think I'm crazy.

Grace told me her and my mom were dating and I was kinda surprised but I don't think it's bad and they sound pretty serious so I'm thinking it's going to be really odd if I end up with three moms. All of a sudden the evil version of my mom(Lexi) appeared and told me she wanted to have me baptized. Grace protected me though and tickled me a bit.

Finally evil Lexi offered me some candy and I decided to go with her but mom(Lexi) appeared and drove off the evil one and then her and Grace and me talked for a while and Ihad a good time and then mom suggested we go back to the future and I could show Grace how the bath machine worked. I didn't like the idea much but I agreed.

We went home and mom and Grace and me all sat on the couch and then aunt Angel appeared and she was actually mostly nice. She did threaten to put me into one of those doggie carrying cases though. Grace fell asleep and then mom made me take my medicine which Ihavn't done for a long time and I passed out.

My arch nemesis is alive! Oh happy day!

Today was kinda fun. I woke up and after the nannies finished dressing me and all I went and talked to Marquie. She left after a while and went out to the woods where I suddenly saw R's church. She was alive again, or at least she was a ghost. I tried to talk to her but my powers are so weak now and so are hers. Finally I realized the only way to help her come back was to help fix the church so I set about that.

I got a chair to try to fix the door after doing everything that was easily within reach. R wouldnt let me get on the chair cuz she was afraid I'd fall and so I sat down to rest. I was really tired and after a while I fell asleep and when I woke up R was gone.

Then I went to talk to Grace for a while and she was actually kinda nice for a change cuz shes not little anymore cuz the spell wore off. Then mom(lexi) appeared and said she loved Animus more than me and cried and she threatened me nad I hid behind Grace til Grace made her stop. She left with Grace and then I talked to Marquie and Willow.

Willow was mad at me for releasing her prisoner but she wasnt too mean, though she did make me stop talking for a long time but Marquie gave me cocoa so I was happy. Then mom came back and Willow and Marquie left and mom took me home and I finally agreed to help her get Kirna and Animus' blood cuz she promised not to hurt them and said it was just for a ritual.

My mom hates me...

I went and talked to Athena today about Siona and she just laughed at me a lot and she bugged me to try to fix myself and I said I didnt really want to cuz if I stay young Siona wont try to ask me out. Finally Athena had to go and I went out to the forest.

I found something sparkling in the ground and went to dig it up and when touched it a force field popped up around me and these little creatures started stinging me and sucking my blood. Mom(lexi) appeared and rescued me and said that she did that to punish me for hanging around Kirna. We went home and she kept being mean to me and I tried to run away but she stopped me and then she made me take a bath in the water torture machine and I fell asleep shortly afterwards.

A really crazy day

I played with Nic after I woke up and she told me Imoen got turned old again and I guess that's good. She asked if I missed being little and I told her I was little and then she started acting even more confused and finally Alexis and her wondered off somewhere, I'm really kinda worried about her.

Then I sat with Mes for a while and talked and shes feelin really tired too and Sabe was mean to her and we both kicked him and then Siona came down and helped us. She wanted me to come on an adventure but Mes wouldnt let me and Siona kept asking so finally I slipped away.

We went to Willow's dungeon and freed a kid she'd captured. Then Willow came and hurt me a lot and Siona went into hysterics and so did Marquie and they both came and things got all complicated and everyone was yelling and Willow kept hurting me and then Siona and Marquie were made to leave and Willow tried to recapture the kid but Istopped her and got knocked out in the process. There was so much yelling and anger and it was really scary especially since I didnt really want anyone there to get hurt.

When woke up I was back in the hall and Naoki, another one of Willow's prisoners, was healing me and then Siona came and made me feel lots better and changed me and then took me downstairs again and we sat and talked and things got even worse.

She told me when I got big again she wanted to be my girlfriend again even though before she wanted me to stay a baby and adopt me. I was really confused and kinda creeped out. She said she wanted to have me and Creepy McGee as her boyfriends! I dont want to hurt her and I thought this whole mess was over and 'd never have to deal with her liking me in that way again.

Instead its started again and now I'm really confused and I dont think Iwant to be around her anymore and its sad because she was being really nice to me. I couldnt reply and just started crying loudly and when I finally did manage to tell her what was wrong I told her I felt bad that I was never going to be able to return her feelings and then she got all whiney and I just felt worse and finally I cried myself to sleep.

Imoen got mean!

Well today I woke up and went downstairs and Grace was talking about killing me and me and her got into a fight and she tried to choke me and then attacked a guard and all sorts of crazy stuff. I think she's finally cracked under the pressure of being eight and its scary. When I calmed down I left to talk to Nic and she was nice to me and she knew I wasnt responsible for what happened.

I sat with my mommy for a while and then Marquie came in and we talked about stuff along with Piretesse and Marquie was cold and then Eowyn tried to get us all to go to the cemetery with her but I was kinda scared and Marquie didnt wanna go anyhow. So then we went up to the nursery and I got in a fight with my cousin Ethan who is now only a year old. I didnt wanna get in trouble so I used a scroll to go see Imoen.

She was being all serious and adulty but she couldnt make food so I helped her and even after that she was still mean to me and so was Willow. Willow didnt kidnap me though so I guess thats good. I tried to get Imoen to loosen up byu playing with her in some mud but she just ended up going to take a bath and I went home.

Athena found me and dragged me upstairs and I decided I'd behave while she washed me and then I said a bad word and she put me in a crib but she let me out so we could go hang out with Imoen and Velrik cuz I thought maybe Imoen would be nice to me now.

Athena said shed turn me into an even smaller baby if I didnt behave but I know she wouldnt do that. Velrik wasnt mad at me but he and Athena made me and Imoen clean up our messes. I cleaned my mess but he wanted me to help Imoen clean hers too and I wouldnt so he stuck me in a play pen for a long time and when I woke up Athena had taken me back to the hall.

I argued with Naoki and we had a fight but Athena made me apologize and then I went to bed. I didnt mean to start being such a brat all of a sudden and Iknow it bugged Athena and Velrik so I'll try to behave better tomorrow.

I'm four years old again...again!

Siona saved me from Willow's dungeons and brought me into her room and made me all better (except for the binding to Willow) Well she calmed me down and changed me and then started to cuddle me to sleep when all of a sudden something happened.

I felt magic and I felt my age changing. However the effects were random and -sigh- it made me four yet again. Siona got turned into a seven year old and started beating me up thinking I did it. I ran away and then I saw Imoen in the hall and she was the same age I am! And my mom was only a few years older than me. I think the spell hit the whole castle though I'm not sure it turned everyone into a kid or not.

Imoen and me got captured by a nanny and Siona was really mean to me. Imoen didnt have clothes that fit her so the older kids made a distraction while I took her up to the nursery to help find her some clothes since I have the most experience dealing with stuff like that.

She said she didnt need to wear a diaper but I bet the nannies will feel differently haha. Anyhow they were still chasing the older kids aroundso me and Imoen saved tehm by dtopping baby powder on the nannies so we're like hereoes now. Well I got caught and put to bed but I think everyone else escaped ok, I cant wait to see what happens tomorrow!

Another installment in the "worst day of my life" series

Today started out kinda scary and ended really terrifying. I went to visit Imoen and she was really worried because Myst had attacked her. I talked to her for a while but she just kept seeming really distant and sad and I wanted to make her feel better so badly. All I could do was just hug her. She told me Myst almost killed her and that really scared me. I think it would have even if I weren't as young as I am.

I went back to the castle and Grace and a friend of hers showed up. Grace is kinda like my older sister and shes a little bit on the mean side but she only does it playfully not to hurt me and usually I guess I deserve it. Her and Piretesse kept messing with me and finally Imoen appeared so I ran and hid on her lap and she protected me and told Grace and Piretesse they couldnt be mean to me. After a while the two of them left and so did Imoen and I went to find Mes.

She hadnt been talking to me all day and I was really worried for her. She was in her cave and she was barely able to move or talk. Me and Phoenix found her and took her to the med room. The mages who are always after her had drugged her and then messed with her mind but Phoenix fixed it and I helped her get back to her den and we talked a while. I gave her a drink of water and it turned out that it was the thing the drug was in. I also tasted all her other food and when I started to feel weak and tired I realized it was in all her food and threw it all out.

Mes and I were both heavily sedated and I didnt know what was going on. I tried to tell her I loved her and then I remember trying to get home to go to bed and falling over in the forest. When I looked up Willow was there and she carried me back to her dungeon while couldnt resist. She made me drink this potion and then she started casting a spell on me.

It felt like my wrists were getting squished from inside and I was really frightened. She had bound me to her so I have to do what she says and she can control my powers and access my mind and all sorts of other things and I started crying and then she held me and made me tell her my worst fears and I couldnt not do what she said...

Finally she ordered me to stay in her bed and left me there. I wrote down the exact stuff that happened here.

My sister is mean!

Today I went to see Imoen and shes been given the powers of a god to teach her a lesson for some reason. She was really worried about it and I could tell and I also saw Coal Locke for the first time in years, ever since Ariel and me were little kids. Anyhow even though I doubt she did anything wrong Neidhalt was still mad at her and then she ran off and I followed Neidhalt to him and Tallanth's house.

I walked in and him and Tallanth were fighting and I tried to make her feel better cuz she was crying and she yelled at me a lot and called me names til I started crying too and left. I ran into Kirna on the way back to the castle and we went to her evil mart. I tried to eat some cookies there but they were evil and made me barf and then Kirna came and made fun of me and I sat down and then she started jumping on a bed in the furniture department and went to join her but the thing send me into a thing of giant fly paper on the ceiling.

She pulled me down after I started crying and then made fun of me a while longer til she got tired and send me home. She tossed me out of a portal near the caves and from there I went to see my cousin Eowyn and try to help her figure out how to beat her ex husband who is an evil exalted. All she seemed to want to talk about was how everything was hopeless and she missed her father, who's been gone as long as my own father has. We got in an argument about her attitude and I left.

Marquie came and took me back to the castle and we had cocoa and cookies and talked to my cousin Ethan he seemed kinda distant and I had trouble holding my cocoa and spilled it so he made a bib appear on me and I couldnt tug it off but Marquie made me feel ok by holding me and rubbing my tummy (cuz I ate so many cookies) and after a while I just fell asleep in her arms.

I'm blue abudee abudie abudee abudie...

I ran into Imoen today and I was really worried because she and Mes got into a fight with some guy and got hurt. Imoen said she was ok but I hugged her really tight anyhow. Then Tallanth appeared and she was really mean to me and Imoen even yelled at her for it which was really nice of her. She told me to go get some food for Tallanth so I did and then I came back with it and we ate a little and then they both left so I was kinda lonely for a while and decided to take a nap.

When I woke up Marquie was in the nursery and I slipped over to talk to her since she'd lowered the sides of my crib. She adopted the baby who thinks she's his mom and his name is Matthew. I'm proud of her for being so nice and everything but I'm so worried she'll get all old now and forget about hanging out with me just like Ariel and Wraith...

Well in the meantime she's been babysitting me when Siona and Imoen and Mes aren't around. We heard some horrible noises upstairs and went up to investigate along with Dosara, my cousin Ethan's girlfriend. I was about to go see what was going on when I saw my aunt Alexis down the stairs and climbed up the bannister to slide down to her. Marquie snatched me up before I could and scolded me and said that even though I normally do it all the time I'm not allowed to do it anymore.

Well I went and talked to aunt Alex then and she was nice as usual but after a while things got all quiet and I decided to go visit Mes. I found her in her cave as always and she looked ok. She wasnt in a very cuddly mood but she still held me and we talked and stuff and I told her how glad I was that she was ok. She said she was having trouble sleeping and I said she could stay in my tower if she wanted but she said she likes her cave and I do too. Eventually she fell asleep and I was kinda lonely for a while and decided to head home.

Out of nowhere mom(lexi) appeared and bundled me up and threw me in a basket. She said she was sorry but she had to go on business and she was sending me to stay with Kirna to make sure I'd be looked after. She set the basket on the doorstep of Kirna's evil wal mart and then left a note on it and disappeared. Kirna's servants took me inside and she almost dropped me into a vat of acid and made fun of me a lot and was just generally mean.

Finally she said she was going to experiment on me and for the experiment she turned me blue and then dumped me back in my crib. I'm not sure how long I'll stay like this but its really no fun. At least I'm not pink. She also said she's not nearly done with me and I'll stay at the age I am now for a while longer. Blargh.

Just a normal old day

Today was kind of boring. Marquie was around though and we say and talked about all kinds of stuff and apparently some kid thinks she's his mother and I think she's going to adopt that so I hope it goes well for her. Siona appeared after a while and teased me a lot.

But of course it was all in good fun. After she left me and Marquie went to the village and talked some more and then we headed home. We ate cookies and hot cocoa til she decided to put me to bed. I woke up a few hours later and managed to escape from my crib and go down to the hall.

There I met Aystynne's daughter, Lorelei. Aystynne was a friend of mine from a long time ago who was married to an adventurer named Jack Nestle. They both disappeared but I talked to Lorelei a while and she seems really nice so that was fun. After that I went to bed for real and that was my day.

The great escape

Well today I had a short argument with Velrik about some mechanical stuff he found. I dont want to seem like I always argue with him and I've tried to be nice to him but I did have to say I didnt like the idea of digging up old technology. Imoen came and she just didnt say anything and I thought she was right to trust in Velrik's judgement so I joined her and quieted down.

Anyhow after that I talked to Siona and she was kinda busy so once again I decided to scamper off and go visit Mes. She came to the castle and carried me back to her den and gave me something to eat. She was sad about me turning back one day and I said I didnt even know if it'll happen or not.

She only trusts me and cares about me because I'm a child now. I think she'd still care about me if I got older but it'd be in a different way. I told her when I got big again I'd still listen to her and come and stay with her and I'd even cast wards to make sure I wouldnt be able to cause her any trouble. I just really like having her affection and I don't want to lose that and make her sad just so I can become powerful and strong again.

I guess maybe power only serves to make people lonely. I hope not though cuz I like my powers. But Mes is teaching me new things like how to pounce better. We went out to practice on Marquie and when I pounced the nanny from the castle whos arm I had bitten came and snatched me up. Mes was ready to kill her and I had to think fast. I hate being protected and getting people in trouble so I just got the nanny to carry me back top the castle and asked Mes and Marquie to recue me later.

Instead Marquie got snatched by one of the nannies and she made her help out in the nursery. I got my butt smacked yet again and its starting to hurt from it all. One of the nannies gave me something really tasty to drnk but I forgot to ask what it was. Finally Marquie had enough and I joined her in trying to escape.

Marquie and me fought with the mean nanny for a while and then she just gave up and all the kids who hated her decided they were free and escaped. It was neat actually cuz she had it coming and everyone had fun I think. Well Mera showed up and so did Siona and they got us all back under control. I sat down in the nursery for a while and all of a sudden I finally saw the person I'd been hearing about my whole life.

All the other kids were really scared and I heard one of them say it was the bogie man. He wasn t that scary. He was looking around and all the other kids were hiding in their beds and somehow I just knew it was actually him. All my life I'd heard that he was coming for me any minute and to think, me with out my sword!

Well instead I poked him with a stick and he actually turned out to be pretty nice. He even gave me a lollypop. I'm guessing I've been too well behaved lately but maybe he just knew he'd met his match. Anyhow Mera and Marquie put me down for a nap and I grudgingly went to sleep.

I woke up a while later and decided to go see Mes at her cave to see if she hated me. She was mad but she forgave me and I had to promise I wont leave the castle without permission and someone to escort me, preferably her. Then all of a sudden Imoen showed up and Mes didnt know her so she growled at her and Imoen just whipped out her bow and was about to shoot Mes for nothing.

I tried to get in the way but Mes held me back and I almost cried but then Imoen got all mad and just left. I asked Mes to take me after her and she agreed and I tried to explain why Imoen might have done that as Mes carried me through the forests to her. I'm starting to get accustomed to being carried everywhere.

Well anyhow we ran into Imoen and Mes left me in her care but Imoen was really grumpy for some odd reason and even her familiar was being mean to me. she said she wasnt grumpy and I just started back for home and went to bed.

I've forgotten something and I cant remember what it is

I woke up today and went out to talk to Mes. She was really nice to me as usual and she fed me strawberries and held me and told me about her cubs that god killed and about what a sad life she lived and I started crying but she made me feel better and I think that made us both feel better.

That's yet another side effect of my age, I cry for so little reason now. I also get tired if I hold still too long, especially if someone's holding me. And even with as little emotional control and maturity as I had before Ithink I have even less now. Well anyhow Mes decided to go to sleep and she asked *me* to guard her while she slept. Not only did she let me in her den which like noone else ever gets to go into but she let me watch over her while she slept. Plus the strawberries were really yummy.

I felt so proud and glad that she trusted me. I tried to stay up and guard her as long as I could but eventually I needed a nap and when I woke up she had scurried off. So I went towards the castle and there I saw Athena. She actually didnt laugh at me and offered to help so I removed the curse necklace I tricked her into putting on.

She had to go after a while so I went and found Imoen and Siona in the hall. I really didnt want to be seen after what happened yesterday but I guess I didnt have much of a choice. Siona told me to come sit in her lap and I tried to disobey her but she did that voice where if you didnt do what she said you knew it'd be trouble so I went over and let her hold me.

I asked Imoen if I could bite her to pay her back for last night but she said no so I just figured peeing in her bed was revenge enough. Siona eventually had to go to bed while I (having napped) managed to stay up and I sat with Imoen and we read a book about knights and adventures together. We hardly talked and it was quiet but it was a lot of fun too even though normally I hate being quiet and sitting still.

Well I decided to go out and see Tallanth, a succubus I know and see what she was up to because I heard she'd had a baby. Imoen went to find Velrik and I went cautiously into the forest. Tal barely recognized me and asked what I was doing to get back and I said nothing and she asked if I wanted to and I said I wasnt sure because everyone likes me this way and she said I should worry more about myself but she said it in kind of a weird selfish sounding way.

She also asked me to buy her a hat as a gift for the baby but she's still really nice and she gave me cocoa to drink so I was happy. I talked to Naoki, Willow's servant, today. He said she's kind of mad I ran off but she wants to see me so I might let her even though it'd be dangerous. Then grandma appeared and scooped me up and carried me back to the hall.

Gramma's great because she didnt even ask how I got like this she just figured its one of those things that happens to people in our family and I guess after living through mom and me she's not easily surprised. She took me up to her room to rest and tried to make me go to sleep and I squirmed and finally she had me almost asleep when mom appeared.

She said she had some serious type stuff to discuss and I tried to listen. It was all about Eowyn and the evil people I have to run from when I see them. I said something about wanting to fight the evil people I have to run from when I see them. Not now of course when I got older. Mom didnt like that and she started manipulating my mind like she did last time she tried to bound my powers.

Really I don't mind her poking around in my head, she's always gentle and its kind of tingly. I just wish I knew what part of me she changed. Anyhow she just told me to go to bed and not worry though she might have to go for a while soon. Finally she started rocking me and gramma played wiwth my hair and I was out like a light.

I woke up a while later to go to the bathroom but I got snatched up by a nanny along the way so now I'm stuck in a crib yet again. Ah when I get big again some of these nannies are getting zapped. I woke up a while later to see Siona had come to take me out of the nursery so I didnt have to deal with the nannies anymore.

Siona was really nice and gave me a sippy cup of apple juice to drink and some cookies and we talked for a while. I'm pretty sure I'm potty trained now but only if the nannies quit sticking me in cribs all the time. Siona decided I could stay in her room to avoid them and she got me some clothes and she said she might buy me some toys too.

That of course brings up the subject of how long I'll be like this. Siona said she feels selfish for wanting me to stay like this but I really dont mind and everyone else seems to want me like this too. I miss having powers and being able to do stuff on my own and drink and smoke and all that stuff but I have a lot of fun now and everyone seems to love me more now than before.

So I think I'm just not going to bother about it either way and let things go how they will. Anyhow Siona's started to seem all motherly and adultish with me and it's weird, she smacked my hands becuase i tried to open the sippy cup she gave me and she just has the same thing about her that makes me listen that Nic or mom or Carey have. It's some weird power I guess.

Anyhow Siona put me to sleep after a while and thats about it.

Never hold a womans hand when shes in labor

I learned that lesson today. I went out to see mom(Foxxy) and she was busy trying to keep Hlao from killing Sabe like they always want to do. She was busy and Mes showed up and took me away to look after me. She asked me why I trusted her so much when I was completel helpless and I said it was because she always took good care of me.

I also said I wasn helpless and tried to race her to her den but she beat me and we horsed around until I finally decided to go back and see mom. We sat and talked and she thought I was great now that I was so small and cuddlable as she put it.

However she said I need to get fixed sometime because I have to help her fight Eowyn's ex boyfriend. I got cranky because I dont know how to fix myself and Isaid a bad word and she scolded me for it. She hasnt just started that either I dont think I'll ever be old enough to curse in her eyes and I really don't mind.

Well Eowyn had her and her boyfriends baby and I held her hand while she gave birth and she made my hand bleed and then she barfed on me for some reason. Then she left and her mom, Alex, who is my aunt, came and cuddled me up and I sat with her and mom and drank hot cocoa and Alex cleaned me up with magic so I wouldnt have to take a bath.

Mom and her planned to do something to that evil guy who got Eowym pregnant and its a big secret but I wasnt paying attention while they talked about it cuz they gave me chocolate to eat. After a while they both had to leave and mom sent me back to the castle to go to sleep which is what I did.

I woke up in a crib where the nannies put me with a bottle of milk at my side. Thats become kind of normal but what was odd was Siona was there. I think she wants a baby and she didnt know who I was. She was fussing about with me and rocking me.

Shewas really being sweet but she didnt know who I was. I was going to squirt her with the bottle just to be a brat but when I reached for it she just popped it in my mouth. When she was burping me that was the final straw and I told her who I really was which was a pretty bad move.

She gave me the second spanking I've gotten this week, which is more than I got in all my life before this. She stopped after a while and held me til I stopped crying. Then we talked a bit and she said I was too cute like I was and she almost wanted to adopt me, in fact she had said that at first. Then she picked me up and threatened to drop me out a window and I had an accident and she decided to give me a bath. This whole being four thing has its disadvantages...

Anyhow Siona was carrying me to the bathroom when my aunt Alex reappeared and told me to behave and I told her I had been.Trouble was I had to keep behaving now that I was outnumbered. Siona took me to the bathroom and all the nannies turned up to watch since I hadnt gotten a bath since I was like five due to magic I used.

Celesse and Alex and Nic and Tailz all came to watch and keep me from getting away and Siona took off my clothes and started washing me, even behind my ears. Everyone kinda laughed and tailz got soap in my eyes and finally I sat down and tried to behave so it'd be over faster.

Finally it ended and Siona dried me off and decided it was my bedtime. She put me in her bed to cuddle with me while I slept just like we used to only a lot different. I hope I wet the bed as payack.

I'm confuzzled...

As always today was lotsa fun. I went and talked to Imoen first thing and she fed me and I helped her do a little cleaning. I left once to talk to someone and left a note so Imoen wouldnt worry. It's odd I've started asking permission for things sometimes even... Then Velrik popped in and he was just about to laugh at me but he tried to control himself so I made a silly face to get him to laugh.

Him and Imoen both seemed really happy with how I am but its starting to get annoying with everyone asking how I'm going to fix myself. I hate to have to answer that I don't know. Wizards are supposed to know and be confident and stuff and even when I'm not I've pretended but I can't pretend anymore it's just too hard.
Well Marquie appeared and we went to the hall to play. I talked to Mera for a while and she was nice enough not to laugh at me though she did yell at me for biting one of the nannies last night. Then Kiya appeared and tickled me a lot and I ran and hid behind Mera.

They both had to go to bed and then Angel, Arrics older sister, appeared and tickled me and spun me around til I couldnt stand up and generally tormented me. When I was too tired to stop her she had one of the nannies put a diaper on me again which is really confusing me. Finally I was completely tired out and then she put me to sleep by humming and rocking me.

I woke up in the nursery and mom(Lexi) was here and she didnt believe what happened to me. She came and rescued me from the crib though she also said i had a dirty diaper. I'm really starting to get worried as to whether my current body is toilet trained or not. I think next time I read a book I'll hold off on learning a tenth level spell and research child development or parenting or something.

Well anyhow she took me down to the hall and played with me a while and I tried to get a cookie but she wouldnt let me because she said it was past my bedtime. I saw Imoen and she said I could get a cookie and mom left but when I got to get a cookie Tailz had eaten them all and I just couldn't keep from screaming and crying and she made fun of me.

I guess it was just that I couldnt even get a cookie without begging Imoen but I really don't mind needing people's help too much anymore. Imoen gave me a cookie finally and Tailz ran off and I hopped up in Imoen's lap and calmed down. I can tell how she was able to handle Ariel and me at the same time, she's a great parent and a really caring person.

She mentioned Velrik not being around much and I told her I knew he wasnt going to just up and leave like some people did so it was ok. This got me into kind of an uncomfortable sunject but she held me and made me feel alright talking about my father and I even told her I was adopted and so was she and I felt really close to her all of a sudden.
She told me the nicest thing anyone's ever said. She said that my father is proud of me and I cant even express how good that made me feel. She also said that when I get fixed I should try to be as polite and well behaved as I am now and I think I will. She also said I was cute no matter what form I'm in so I'm feeling pretty good right now. I'm making people laugh and noone's really trying to kill me or yell at me anymore so I guess I'm doing ok especially thanks to Imoen.

She carried me upstairs after that to the nursery but instead of putting me in a crib like everyone else does she tucked me into a bed and I was really glad and hugged her. She said she still loved me even if we did argue and I told her from now on I'd try not to argue with her but even when I did I'd know she was right since she usually is most of the time. After that I fell asleep.

There's good news and bad news

The good news is yesterday wasnt the worst day of my life.

The bad news is today was.

I woke up in the nursery in a crib and I was able to climb out. I felt pretty tiny as I walked out into the forest to my tower. I put on green and yellow clothes (favorite colors of shirelings) and then cast a spell to make my shoes look like hairy feet. I had trouble getting dressed by myself and that kinda bugged me. All I could do was hope everyone mistook me for a hobbit.

I came upon Kiya and Celesse in the woods and they told me of the problem with my orcs, which I dealt with quickly. Then I went and ran into the two lupines staying in the forest, their names are Tala and Bromwyn I believe. They were scared because Velrik had yelled at them for stealing dresses and bothering the villagers but I said it was ok because they didnt have anything else to wear and Itold them they could get whatever they needed at my tower from now on.

They seemed really understanding about my temporary youthfulness and so has just about everyone else. The other version of Mes who captured me and nursed me while I was in the dungeons of the evil Kielder especially seemed to like me.

We had never really gotten along since evil Siegfried died but when I came to visit her she seemed really affectionate and nurturing (though still a little strict) just like she was when she had me in her care in the dungeons. She held me and talked and she got me thinkign that this isnt too bad and its a chance to forget I'm a wizard and all my other jobs if only just for a little while.

She also said that the reason she didnt always feel comfortable about me was because she was a familiar and wizards hurt her sometimes and I promised I'd be nice to her and even offered to be her familiar. She told me she'd protect me so noone would hurt me and I felt really good afterwards. We tickled eachother and then she held me stil until I settled down and purred until I went to sleep. It's kind of odd that I take naps now but I guess I'm supposed to at this age. This could take some getting used to.

Well when I woke up Mes was gone so I went back to the hall. I talked to Nic a bit and she made me feel a lot better about everything just cuz she's Nic. Then I saw Marquie and she picked me up -groan- and set me on her lap -double groan- So I guess I'll have to refer to her as my big sister until I get fixed. She gave me some hot cocoa and cookies and then Logain (her grandfather and Siona's father) appeared and thats when it all started.

Marquie and him were supposed to go somewhere and he said I was too young to come. Then he tried to take away my hot chocolate but I wouldnt let him. So instead he teleported me to a big crib in the nursery that I couldnt get out of and this nanny came up to try to take my drink away. She was only trying to take care of me I guess but I wanted out of there so I spilled the cocoa.

She put me in another crib and gave me a cup full of juice that had a lid on it. Then I tried to get her to take me to the bathroom so I could run off but instead she laid me down and took off my pants and then followed me into the bathroom. Normally such treatment would be accompanied by a stabbing but she meant well and I was unarmed.

Well she took me to the bathroom and since she was tehre I couldnt escape so I let her take me back but instead of just putting me in the crib she put a diaper on me. Once again a stabworthy offense. This time I was armed with a piece of shale that had chipped off a corner tile but she took it away from me.

So of course I bit her. I felt kinda bad for it but she had it coming sort of. She went off to look at her arm where I bit it and left me with the meanest nanny ever. She smacked my butt and then she tried to drug me to get me to sleep but I spit up the liquid all over her and then just as she was about to do something dreadful to me Danika and a friend of hers appeared.

I todl the evil nanny that Danika was my mom and she and her friend (whose name is Piretesse) coroberated my story and took me out of the nursery and got me dressed and gave me something to eat and I felt lots better. I guess it was kind of silly to trust a succubus and a drow I barely knew to take me out of the nursery but I knew they were nice somehow.

Then some strange woman came in after they left and asked if people would pay a ransom if she kidnapped me. I told her no and she left. Silly. I got bored but then Imoen came in and I sat with her and she kept calling me cute, which I'm getting used to and offered to help me get better and she also said Velrik wanted to see me,.

Best of all she gave me some decent clothes made for my size and I hugged her really tight. I'm almost glad this has happened as it's let me stop worrying about magic and get along with some people a little better, especially Velrik and Imoen and I'm really glad for that. Of course Logain likes to pick on me but I think he's not as mad at me now as he was before so that should be ok.

Anyhow I got in a little fight with a visitor and my powers were really screwy and everyone laughed at me but they wwere just being playful. Then Mes showed up and said I could sleep with her tonight to avoid the nursery and I was really happy. But Imoen wanted me to stay with her and Velrik (which I havn't ever done) and I felt like incredibly good for the invitation. I guess she figured I cant cause much trouble like this and I dont want to either.

Imoen told me she likes me better as a little kid because i listen a little better now that I'm not quite as indeependent and powerful and stuff, that and she just thinks I look cute. I guess Mes agrees. I really don't mind except for the part about having to rely on others so much, Imoen said I was barely toilet trained and I wasnt entirely sure, it's kind of like I don't know exactly what I should be like at this age even though I still maintain most of my knowledge (I hope) I'm not sure what my body does and won't do and I'm not sure what people expect of me either.

I told Imoen I'd come stay with them tomorrow and tongiht I'd stay with Mes. Mes really likes me now too and I'm glad and hopefully it wont change when I get older. I think I;'ll stay like this till I can surprise mom and til Velrik sees me and then I'll start working on making Kirna fix me. I curled up in Mes' den to sleep and I have a big day ahead tomorrow so I better rest.

So I guess today didnt turn out so bad afterall..

I want my mommy...

Today started out great. I had a good escape from Willows dungeon, got a good meal, took a good nap and then I went back home and went to talk to my good little sister Marquie. She was kinda sad but I made her feel better and I found out she dosnt hate me and we decided we'd hang out no matter what and Itold her I'd try to get along with Imoen and Siona and everyone. I decided then and there to go talk to Siona and thats what I did as soon as Marquie went to bed.

So I went and found Siona in the library and we got in a fight over Marquie but in the end we both agreed that she would turn out ok and that we'd never make her a part of our fights again. Then something even weirder happened. Siona still likes me in some way and it's kind of weird but it also explains how shes been acting. We decided we could get along and then she tickled me and we rolled around and she gave me cooties but Igave them back to her and it was gross and then I told her I was going to go bug Kirna.

I found Kirna at the evil Wal Mart and I messed around a bit and then she tossed a pillow over my head that tried to suffocate me. When I got it off she was casting and I couldnt stop her and it felt like my body was stuck in a vice. When it was over I was... well I was four years old. Kirna dressed me in all kinda of horrible non-green clothing and put some sort of horrible harness on me and dragged me into the hall.

Imoen was there and she soon realized it was me. Then we tried to talk about Marquie and shes still not happy Marquie hangs out with me and she still thinks I'm a rotten person and it really hurts. I'm glad Siona and Marquie think better of me but I still wish Imoen didnt disapprove of me so much.

Anyhow Marquie appeared and I was really glad to see her and Iknew she wouldnt be mean to me. But then Imoen and the two of us kinda got into it and Marquie stormed off and Imoen left too and I think Imoen is looking after Marquie for now since I can't. That kinda feels bad too and then I saw Morgaine but she was kind of nice to me so it wasnt that bad.

I just hope Marquie's ok...

I can still cause trouble

Despite being unable to move just about I still managed to cause a bit of trouble. I slept all last night and when Willow came in to ask the guard she had on me what I had done I told him to say that I'd slept. He did so and Willow got all suspicious and nearly killed hte poor guy but I stopped her and just laughed.

So now I'm going to be left alone without any guard. I'm a bit worried about Marquie and whether she has anyone to talk to now but I guess I have to let her make her own choices even if they are based upon lies people spread about me. I can't worry about that now though, escape is far more important... and there was something else I was supposed to do as well but I cant remember for the life of me.

I really do hate being captured as much as I hate Siona

Well I went to Windstorm today and my mom was being mean and I went in my dragon form in leu of a costume. So seeing as I had that advantage I just snapped her up in my jaws and got her all slobbery. I call it a preemptive strike. Nic was there too and she was nice as always and I got to see Imo wearing a dress and that was kinda amusing.

Then I headed home and saw Siona and Javehn and they went to the med room and I followed and so did Marquie and Marquie still seems sad. Then Siona and Marquie both went off to talk and when Marquie came back she was in tears. I talked to Marquie and she said Siona's disappointed in her for hanging around me and that just bugs the hell out of me.

So I went to Siona that very minute and gave her a good yelling at before storming off since I didnt wish to start a fight. I told her I'd leave Marquie alone from now on and just let her to herself and that she didnt have to go lying about me to Marquie and insulting her to make me leave her alone. Really I don't want to because I don't know who Marquie will have without me but I can't help it and it seems that I'll get her in trouble either way.

So to add insult to injury I talked to old Creepy and he said I was irresponsible and immature and all the usual crap but I wasnt in the mood to make fun of him so I just left. All of a sudden Willow just popped out of nowhere and before I could fight back she had me chained up in her dungeon. I think she's kinda mad I freed all her prisoners. She made all the usual bad guy threats and then left me to think about what I'd done. I took a nap instead.