Complicatey

I've been hanging out with Ali most of the time now since both of our repsective significant others are off galivanting around. Ali's as snuggly as ever and a lot nicer now that the mood swings stopped.

I havnt seen Imoen in a while but I have felt her around and R is about too. I tried to confront her but she just ran off. I've been being as mean to her as I can to hide that I still have feelings for her, that I wish things hadnt had to go like this.

Oh yes and I've finished my experiments to create clear mud. Eureka!

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I hung out with Mar and Ali today and we got along pretty well considering, it didnt seem weird I guess and Ali's as great as ever and just as protective of me with Si aas with R.

Then Siona pops up and we tried to talk but she kept seeming distant so I ended up going to try to find Mar. She was talking to Lashana and I was kinda suspicious so I tried to spy on Lashana, not on Mar, you understand, but then Siona yelled at me and I had t come out. Lashanas working with R though and I think she's up to something.

Then Mar and Siona seemed REALLY pissy with eachother and Siona left. I ended up bugging the hell out of Mar by poking her repeatedly until she finally started yelling and screaming and got it all off her chest. It's a revolutionary procedure I've developed actually.

She was jealous of me and Siona deep down but she'd never acted on it adn that made me proud of her as ever. She eventually went in for a nap and I cant blame her. I headed into the village on a distress call. Serenity, a healer and follower of some loonie cult, had come in and seen some drow fighting.

I explained to her that it was just Valkryn and a friend and drow were like that and then we talked about our vows of celibacy. I was kind of unsure about Siona and still am. I really need someone to talk to about it... Now I know how Mar feels I guess.

Anyhow all of a sudden I sensed Imoen Nodolan and scurried off to see her. She was as wonderful as usual, scarcely changed at all and I had so much to tell her. She on the other hand just told me to get a bath which I did with magic. Then she found a place to sleep in the woods and I promised to come see her again.

Also it seems that Sabe attacked his son Aeden and if so I'm going to have to smack the tar out of him and Siona's already in line for the same tihng. Should be interesting.

A change of allegiance, a change of heart

Siona saught me out early today. She was angry that I'd lied to Marquie and hurt her and we soon got into our usual arguments of who's a better mage and who's better for Mar and so forth. In the end one of us attacked the other and we began rolling on the floor biting and hitting eachother until Siona and I knocked eachother back.

We came to our senses after that and began to talk. Siona is always complicated but after a while I figured out she still loves me and the reason she was so mad over R is that she was jealous in some way. For a time I wanted the same thing, though I havnt yet told her that.

Now it seems that we both want eachother, or perhaps need might be a more accurate word. Siona needs someone to care for, to ease the loneliness even I can see in her eyes, and she needs a father for Marquie, something I thought I might never be. I need someonee to help me through the business with R, to fill that void in my life and be my fellow, to cuddle with when I wish to sleep.

Siona went off to nap and I joined her after we shared our first kiss in years. More was yet to come. The next day I spoke with Marquie and she seems to be in love, or more accurately, to have a crush on someone. The fact that I lied to protect her from R dosnt seem to be the only thing bothering her, though I'm still at fault for her troubles adn that saddens me, especially with the situation with Siona unfolding.

She came down after a while and I think Mar already suspects what we'll soon have to tell her. She's a smart girl after all... But to delay telling her would only cause her more pain and be cruel, and I cant do that. We did decide that she should stay behind while Siona and I went to tell R that it was over, though.

The two of us entered the church and immediately were stunned by the amount of death within. R seemed to have been planning this for a long time. We found Lashana, her doll, had been recaptured, but we had one thing to do before freeing her. I told R what I was doing, and Siona insulted her to draw her out.

We met in battle and she was truly trying to kill me, using poisoned weapons even. I knew one nick and I would be dead, so I did all that I could to dodge and block her strikes. Finally she had my arms spread out blocking her sword and she dove in to bite my neck.

She hadn't counted on the metal collar I had put on and made invisible, and her fangs shattered on it. The distraction gave me time to send a blast of energy at her from my staff and knock her out. Her form crumbled to dust afterwards, but I knew it was not the end of her.

I hoped it was the end of her church though. I gathered Siona, who had been knocked out during the fight, and Lashana, and had the rangers douse the church in oil. There were no other survivors in the church, and so I stood alone when I struck the altar apart to create a spark to set off the cleansing fires.

I walked out of the flames unharmed thanks to my draconic side, and took Siona to the tower. I helped her change into her night clothes as she was very tired, and then we both went to sleep.

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grief

It seems like lately everyones had a problem with me and R being together. Diedre started snooping around about her and asking questions in the hall last night. When I did tell her she was none too pleased to know I was in love wi th one of the most evil beings in the Shire.

Diedcre soon tired of yelling at me and then Athena showed up and things got fun. She and I eventually got into an argument because she threatened to keep me in the dungeons and I said she couldnt. She tried and after a protracted batttle where she pulled on my hair and I kicked her a few times she threw me in a cell. Luckily I was able to hit her with a sleeping dart and thought I could get out while she was passed out, but she'd cast a spell against that.

She summoned one of the same play pens Velrik and Imoen had plopped me into while I was little so I was stuck and eventually ended up going to sleep. When I woke up she had already been awake and cast a new spell that made my ummm... belt electrocute me if I left the dungeons. I tried and ended up crying. Ouch...

So then I tricked her into releasing me and used my weave sight to figure out how to cast the spell. I put the same spell on her and threatened to teleport away if she didnt take me to her home which I'd never gotten to see. She did and I stayed the night there.

I invited Marquie to come hang out and we talked for a while. She's really broken up that I had to lie to her to keep her and R from fighting. It was the first time I'd done that after all. She'll get over it though and its better than the alternative, though I still wish I hadnt had to.

Athena took us both to the village and her and Mar talked for a whil. R came around but we ended up just fighting and she left, though Mar did manage to make a mean comment that I had to like just because of how much like something I'd do it had been.

Carey came around later and Mar went to bed. She ended up yelling at me a lot too about R and just about anything, but unlike Athena she never seemed to show one bit of affection for me. I don't know what's happened to her but I think she's hung out with Diedre too long.

She and Athena tried to get me to stop seeing R but I don't know if I can. I want to talk it over with R.

Ouchies

So R and I are kind of on the oputs again. I freed some girl she kidnapped and so she threatnened the village and I tried to leave her church to set up a way to defend it but she told me not to. I tried to go anyways and we soon got into a physical fight.

I was doing pretty good until I tried a sunlight spell to stun her and it failed. After that she got to me and drank from me til I stopped resisting. It wasn't so bad after that I guess, just being helpless and weak made it simpler, no need to decide what to do. So we sat together and talked and Athena was there.

Diedre came in too to check on me and find out what I was up to as she'd heard reports of R and I/. She just went on, you know typical ruler talk of loyalty and duty, all nonsense if it isnt already felt... I dont really know if it is to be honest.

I do like R though, and I've been trying to work out a solution to the problenm with this girl. R wanted me to recapture her but I refused, instead leaving it to her own will. We'll see what happens.

Spell crafting

The last two days have been most eventful. Marquie returned, which is always a very happy occurence. She's more confident and powerful than ever before and I told her that soon wehn she's advanced in amgecraft highly enough I'll show her how to create her own tower.

After that Ali shopwed up and she was in a remarkably good mood. We all palyed catch up and chatted until Ali had to go and make a commnet about me getting a bath. Naturally this led to Marquie dumping a lot of water over me. I chased her off and then Ali tripped so I turned the ground under her into mud, both as a way to get her back and to save her from injury.

After that we treked to R's church to get baths, and R had me bring in the water for Ali even though I'd called first bath. We all ended up just hopping in the tub mostly clothede to get our bodies and clothes clean. It was really fun and R and Ali got along great. Ali's going to help R decorate her church now so thats good.

While I was bathing I heard from Kirna. I wanted R or Ali to come along but they said no so I had to answer her summons alone. I found that she had a younger version of Lexi tied up and unconsious, but she was nice enough to release her to me, or so I thought...

When she woke up she was an utter bitch. She's the Lexi of long long ago when she first abandonmed Kirna and Animus. She hates me but Ali calmed her down a bit. We got into a fight over soemthing though and I begged Ali to just let me kill her and be done with it. We finally literally fought and I ended up choking her into unconsiousness. No one ever made me that mad before but I guess the way she talked about abandoning her children just hit me too hard.

Anyhow I put her to bed in the tower and I woke up to go check on her to find that Athena was around. Athena kept us from killing eachother long enough to discover where the Lexi belonged, or more importantly when. However young Lexi took something of mine before she was banished so I might have to follow her. That should be interesting.

After that I traveled with Marquie to Rosa's lair so they could meet for the first time since Mar had been back. Rosa was unusually secretive and strict and I found out later it was because a draconic meeting was going on between some metallics and chromatics and she didnt want me involved.

She told me not to move from the spot before she was uckily called off on an errand. Marquie however fell asleep and I had to put her to bed. When I realized I'd disobeyed her a little bit I decided I';d go all the way so I headed to where the council was going on and joined it on the side of the chromatics after shifting forms.

Naturally they tried to make a sneak attack happen, but they didnt count on me being there. I took two out of the sky and beat a third with a great deal of difgficulty, having to use a spell combination I call the human bullet after falling out of dragon form.

Finally the battle was won and I returned to Rosa's cave to collect Mar and head home. I spent the rest of the night talking with Ali and Mar. Poor Ali misses her husband so much and I wish there was sokmething I could do. I hope my company at least helps in some way.

Dangerous love

I finally admitted to R today that I was in love with her and she feels the same about me... there's just one problem. She's evil. We both know it and she only tried to become good for me. I was determined to work around that and we swore our love for eachother even if we did end up fighting on different sides.

However I also have to keep to my vows. I swore not to know a woman's touch and I mean to keep that oath until Mystra releases me. But I might soon have another goddess to contend with. R's announced her intentions of attempting to overthrow Layalees again and this time I'll stand with her. I've already found a spell that will start her on the way.

But none of that matters really. I'm just glad that R is comfortable iwt h who she is and accepts me for who I am. It really isnt all that hard to accept that she has different morals than me, and as long as we have our love she's perfect in my eyes, even if she is a demon.

I don't know how I'll explain all this to Marquie when she gets back though...

City of spiders

So I recently met one of the Baenre daughters, Ha'rissa, in the underdark. Or maybe she was just a cousin, I'm not sure. Regardless she was pretty interesting and seemed friendly enough so I decided to head to Menzoberanzan with her since I'd never see nteh city up close. I knew it was probably a trap but I figured it'd be fun. I left a note for Ali and then took off with the drow.

I had to go in the guise of a slave, which was quite a bother, but to see the greatest city in all the underdark it was well worth it. We came out of a portal within Menzoberanzan and it was everything I'd dreamed. The architecture was beautiful. You could scarcely tell that it had once been a wild and empty cavern of stalagmites.

She took me into the Baenre compound and there she revealedx that I'd been brought for her own... pleasures. I was somewqhat taken back, but I'd expected treachery so I palyed along. At some point I pretended to run my hands over her body, aiming to find just what I did- the drow sleeping darts. I bided by time a while longer and then jammed one into her arm while I held her mouth shut.

After that the routine was simple. Dress as her, walk out, leave the city after a few purchases and tricks played, and then head back to the surface. There were minor adventures on the way, such as my first encounter with a cave fisher, but excepting the usual underdark troubles it was ok. I made it back to the surface with just scrapes and bruises, but I had a harder battle to fight.

Ali was there and she found me. I dodged about for a while but she was seriously mad at me for traveling to a drow city even she hadn't dared to enter. The scolding hurt worse than anything that had happened on the way from Menzoberanzan but, as usually happens when I'm in peril, salvation arrived from the least likely source.

Gia showed up and I spent the rest of the night bringing her tea and wine and anything else she could desire. Alo couldnt beat me up infront of Gia as a matter of form and because Gia might well have stopped her anyhow. Gia's so nice, I can't see why Alais hates her.

Anyhow I showed her to a room after a while and then Athena came around and her and I and Alais talked. Alais was seeming really down until Athena arrived. I think it was because in her heart she knew that my adventure to Menzoberanzan was something she couldnt have followed on in her present state and it just made her feel abandoned. I feel really awful for her and I'm going to try to hang around her as much as she'll have me now.

Athena helped too though and Alais brightened up, especially when they started talking about weapons. Especially drow sleeping darts. Athena was very interested in them while we sat teasing eachother, and before long Alais had given her a few, which put me on my guard. She just smiled and seemed to put them away, but by the time i realized the deception one of them was sticking out of my arm and I was pouting at her as she started to carry me off towards my bed and Ali left on some sort of journey over the seas.