Too much

So... No, theres no way I can explain it. In the past few days I've seen my whole world crumble around me. People I thought I could trust completely either stabbed me literally or disappeared... I guess I'll start from the begining.

The shit with Mar just made me want to run away or kill Zodiac. I still want to kill him but not as badly. I was trying to get to Navere when I felt Marquie being attacked. It took a tenth level spell to get in quickly since I didnt have time to mash the wards.

I ended up cutting a good slash through the green dragon that was attacking her not to mention the doors and guards that Zodiac had around. Mar was really hurt and I helped heal her and then tried to get away again only to be stabbed by Ali's daggers. She tried to cripple me so I wouldn't be able to go to Navere. I managed to escape before she could finish what she was doing but I ended up going back and that time she nearly kept me around except that that moron Zodiac interfered and kept me angry enough to force my way free.

I decided to kill him then and there and the next dat I called a duel. I could feel Marquie slipping away from me and I had to take action to stop it, but everyone I looked to for support was just acting like a complete ass. Siona finally made me call it off and then stormed off. I was damned near to following her and just disappearing forever. I felt like just killing, a lot and no one would let me kill the one I wanted.

I saw Ali slipping away and no one cared enough to try to help, no one felt about her like I did. Siona was just so cold, and everyone was yelling at me... and I couldnt talk to Mar. I'd hardly ever felt so alone.

I tried to run away but Marquie caught me and we went back to Ali's room and talked and talked til finally things seemed to be ok again between all of us. Ali and me even agreed about what to do with Navere. As tired and hurt as I was I was soon fast asleep curled up with Mar and Ali.

Today I woke up to find they'd mummified me and I could barely moved. I heard them and hopped out of the room to bite them to death but Ali subdued me and eventually just tugged me into her lap and held me still til I settled down. After that she let me go and then went for a nap while Ali went to talk to Kumi.

After that I went to craft a ring to protect one from the effects of shadow magics and Shar's corrupt weave. Those efforts were interupted by some magical combat in teh village. I went to look and found Siona and Ang were about to fight. I tried to protect the area but Valkryn came around to distract me so I teased him with a potion Ali had tried to give me that is apparently his.

He wandered off and then Siona tried to use something like spellfire to kill Ang but it failed and just dissipated into a big cloud that looked really ominous. I'd been working with focus stones to hold the power for the ring and so I was able to use one of them to trap a lot of Siona's energy, and, as it turns out, some of her essence as well.

That might be helpful cuz right now she seems to wanna kill me. Maybe I can use a spell on it to calm her down...