A long time coming

I havn't been able to write for the past weeks because i've been exploring with Sylnaya and Ariel. We traveled past the door thanks to Sylnaya solving a puzzle, and then I saved us from some golems when I realized they were only attacking because we had weapons drawn.

After that we found a library full of what seemed to be every book ever, including some that had not yet been written which I saw in the future with Lexi. Anyhow, we picked that room to rest in. For once I woke before them and snuck off, but I did leave a note.

I saw Brit and she isnt doing terribly well at all though shes feisty as ever. I also saw Cinder and Sylvia which was a treat. Sylvia had to go after I had an argument with Valkryn. It wasnt really over anything, we just dont get along. He mentioned Kielder being attacksed and I plan to go aid in the war effort. It's Caernarfon that's doing it but since Morgause isnt there anymore I'm free to help defeat them.

After he left, grumpy as ever, I went with Cinder to the tavern to pay off the massive tag that Ariel and Syl had been running up. I talked with Cinder about how i planned to attack Lolth and her priestesses when they tried to sacrifice me, but now that I think about it I'm not so sure.

For one thing it'd get Ari and Syl in trouble, and I don't want to do that. I don't think they even really want to sacrifice me anyhow, but regardless I can't risk getting my friends in trouble, especially with a goddess as evil as Lolth.

The other problem is that if a dimensional rift opened to let Lolth and her minions through I'd probably have to reverse the polarity on it and summon creatures from the positive plane, and that would likely mean that many of the drow would be killed needlessly in the battle.

And nay who did survive, myself and my friends included, would be in a lot of trouble, not just hunted, but the explosion would be terrific, which is really the biggest reason. I was reading about Mystra's ascension, and discovered that there are serious consequences to killing gods, namely a massive explosion able to level whole cities. I couldnt have the blood of so many innocent drow on my hands.

So as of now the plan to attack Lolth is officially off, and I'll just have to trust to Mystra and my two friends to keep me safe from being sacrificed. Ariel I know I can trust, but I think Sylnaya is mad at me. We got in a fight in the caves and I lost my temper and ended up sending her into a wall. I wish there was some way to show her I didn't mean it... Maybe I could start another fight with her and lose!