I never thought that'd happen!

Well I woke up today and went to find something interesting to do. I went out to the forest and there met with Tal and Sol and they gave me candy and are very nice for demons. Sol mentioned that I was a virgin again and after a short argument which consisted of me casting several tickling spells on her she vowed never to say such again. Like I said those two are really nice for demons. Well after a while a celestial appeared, apparently the son of Tal's male counterpart. He went after Tal and rose to stop him and I thought we were getting along great whe they flew off and he cast some spell on her.

She started plumetting to the ground and Sol tried to catch her. I had floated into the air to investigate and started down for the ground swiftly to catch them both. Unfortunately at the last moment Tal stopped their descent while I was heading right for them and not expecting this. Needless to say we all smacked into the ground and it really hurt but I was pretty much ok. After this Sabe showed up with Mes as well and while we talked Sabe realized that his dragon egg he'd taken was hatching and ran off, telling Mes and I to follow.

I followed swiftly, telling Mes how Sabe had taken it from a dragon that Ariel and me and our friends slew. Well we got to his room and I cast a protection from acid spell on myself and watched, expecting the think to kill him. Instead it just spit acid at him and didnt seem too terribly evil, so I'm guessing it's quite special. After this I went downstairs to talk to Eowyn about meeting her husband to be and then went back to the future to see if mom(alex) wasn't around.

She wasnt around and when she was it hardly seemed to matter since she's ignored me since Maris' disappearance. I tried dressing up in black and whining about how miserable I was but that didnt help. Then I set the house on fire but she still didnt pay attention to me. Finally she did say something to me but all she did was tell me to take out the garbage!!! I grabbed the bag and threw it all around her angrily. She got rather mad and we got into a huge fight and I went off and cried. She seemed like she didnt even notice that I was trying to help Maris and Animus both and that I wasnt at fault for what happened.

I don't know why but I'm always scared people don't care enough about my efforts, that maybe I'm not quite doing enough or not doing things well enough for my family and friends to think me worthy of their love. I calmed down though after a while and found mom was talking with R and we continued our argument and R was actually being nice to me which was really weird. Or maybe she just seemed nice compared to mom. In any event I can still see the good in R.

Finally I gave up and said I'd go clean up what I did to the appartment and mom said she'd punish me horribly(which she'll forget about once I save Maris and Animus) . After that I went to bother this Willow person who had imprisoned me once or twice and I kicked her into one of her own cells and held her there while I ransacked her dungeon. Then she tried to kidnap Mera but I rescued her and surprisingly enough the disappearance of Mera summoned Arik, my brother I havn't seen in years. I yelled at him to go apologize to Mera and my mom (foxxy) and he tried to teleport me somewhere but avoided it and finally he jsut left.

Willow says she won't release the other prisoners she has unless I give up my powers to her, which I',m not doing cuz she'd use them for evil. I nearly killed her today and I had my nephew steal teh keys to her dungeon so I'm sure I'll take care of her soon in a permanent fashion... Or maybe not... I've been feeling really bad ever since killing the evil Nic. I mean she was going after Carey but she still looked so much like the woman who cared for me when I was a child. Maybe we're not all that different and evil people don't deserve to die just for being evil. I'll give that some thought in the coming days.