Success!

Jelia came to my cell and bothered me a bit today, making fun of the way I ate and just generally acting haughty and rather odd. I think she was surprised that I'd accepted Gia as my rightful ruler so easily, I guess maybe she'd heard of my reputation. I'm one of the more well known surfacers in the underdark just for the ammount of times I've been down here.

After she left and I felt safe enough I tried to talk to Alais. I could have sworn I heard her singing recently. I spoke in draconic, figuring as well as she knew the Barimens she must know a bit of the language and the drow probably wouldn't.

It was her. She told me she';d come down here since Gia wasnt noticing her anymore and she seemed angry and sad. It turns out the battle I had felt coming was against another noble house that had taken Gia and Alais' son. Valas is apparently Gia's biological son but Alais looked after him and loves him.

Alais killed some people to save him and she seems really down about that. I told her I could see why she did it and that I'd ask Mystra to forgive her as well as her own goddess Elistraee. It just makes me glad I wasnt there and didnt have to make that choice...

I tried to tell her about how I feel but I don't think she understood the new way in which I've learned to see the world. She still seems to want me to escape, which would only bring trouble. I did tell her that if Gia and Valkryn gave me permission to leave I wouldnt wait for her.

She's decided to stay on her own free will, and if I have such a thing left I suppose I have as well. But there was something else wrong with her I couldnt pin point. She didnt yell at me for coming after her as much as I expected, and she didnt make her points as well as she might have. Maybe she was just tired from the battle or sick, but I mean to find out and I've got nothing but time.

I used the last hours of my day to pray to Mystra and Elistraee to forgive Alais and guide her, and if I had the scroll I'd have cast atonement on her then and there. I've become a lot more devout since I came here, and I feel it in my bones that this might be my true calling. I'll write more later.