I want my blankie...

Today started out pretty well, and I think things are getting better for me now. Alais came back and started to dye my hair while Illasaya just laughed. It's good to hear her laugh now because it sounds so different and it's not scornful anymore. She's like a different person.

Alais and her got along fine until Alais decided to make me take off my cloak. She got pretty forceful after a while and all of a sudden Ben showed up and started trying to kill her while I struggled to stop him. Or so I thgought.

It turns out that Ben was Bane, and had been using me as an avatar while I slept and trying to corrupt my mind to get to the tablet of restoration. It took all of my will to keep him from hurting Alais and to get the cloak off like she told me to. It burned me in two different spots and when it was finally done I skittered into a corner and hid there.

Alais' husband Thaydin showed up and I managed to murmer something to him to make an introduction. He gave me a new cloak, though something inside me still desired the one I had been wearing. This he took with him when he disappeared.

After that Alais looked after me and she was being really sweet no matter how much of a drow she claims she is. She even called me her little brother, which for all I know is entirely possible as we both have some elven blood. I feel bad though because I'm delaying her plans to get the fruit she needs for Gia, and I hope I can be well enough to help her out by tomorrow.

Anyhow Alais put me to bed and even tucked me in. It's kind of hard to believe that someone so nice could make it among the drow, but I think she just stays that way out of stubborness. I don't know if I'd be strong enough to do that, but there are others down there that are good as well, like Thaydin.

And me as well it seems. Though I left to return to the surface a while after she put me to sleep I know I'll be going back again and again. I may need to find a permanent residence in the drow city. It only recently dawned on me that my powers had been used to kill so many of Navere's men who were only trying to defend their homes. It's only just that I do what I can for the city and for their families to try to make up for that.

When I returned to the surface I talked to Autumn for a while and her autn Abby as well. They both seemed really appreciative of me for some reason, and I tried to make Autumn feel better since she's having some personal problems. I really feel like I'm part of Dragonshire's ruling family, and I've been trying to make myself useful to them. It's really good to know people are happy with me for doing so.

After that I was called off to the plane of Nirvana for only the second or third time in my life to meet with Mystra. She was really none too happy with the Bane situation and I spent the better part of my time there whimpering and hoping she didn't do something terrible to me. I guess she figured she'd scared me enough after a while and she gave me a good shove twoards a portal back to the drow city, which she told me to help and try to heal the wounds I had made. Naturally I'm glad to do so, especially if it's my Godess' bidding.

But by the end of all that I was pretty tired, so I figured to start tomorrow after helping Ali. I went up to the room I share with Illa and curled up on the couch to try to rest. She came in a bit later and watched me toss and turn about for a while. I couldn't sleep without the cloak I had worn foir so long and she must have gotten tired of seeing me pout, because the last thing I remember is getting jabbed with one of those damned sleeping darts, which for the first time ever I'm kind of thankful for.