En Pace Requiscatum

What can I say now? My mother (Lexi) came to offer what comfort she could and she hasnt changed as much as I thought. Many came to pay their respects and I, I wreaked my horrible vengeance upon Velrik and Imoen. It took every last bit of my power to do so. I held a ritual in the chapel and bestowed curses on them that I've never spoken and entreated gods to be cruel to them who I never prayed to before. They will pay for taking her from me and from the world.

But this was not all. I was left near death by the time the day long casting was finished. I felt myself slipping away to see Ariel but this was not my fate. I passed beyond heaven and hell, called by the queen of mysteries. I sat before her lofty chair as I have sat before Nic's ever since I was a babe and she said things that make sense now, but did not then, and things that will make sense later but do not make sense now.

Within her realm time swept away but did me no harm, either due to her magics or my own powers. I cannot say what I saw or what I was told. I can say that when our time together was done I was sent back, having only passed a short time in mortal reckoning within the halls of Mystra.

When I returned I saw that Marquie had turned fifteen, due to an adventure she'd had. But she's still my little sister and I still love her as always, even thoug now Ionly stand seven inches above her. I appreciate and care for her more now than I did before all of this, if that is possible.

Ariel I still miss, and always shall, but she is together with her love and I'll always have her in my heart just as she always was, never blemished by pain or dulled by time or old age. I've carved a gravestone on it giving her my last name, which I feel she aught to have, and the title of princess, which she deserves by her birth though I think she forgot this.

Velrik I know suffers for his crime but, though I can forgive him every injury done to me, I cannot forgive him for Ariel's murder. But I know that Ariel wouldn't want me to kill him or Imoen, and that it would be a bad example for Marquie. So the curse is the best I can do. I know that Ariel and Sieg are at peace just as they should be and Marquie is ok. The only thing I have to worry about is my mom getting mad at me for all this..