Troubles with Liv

Last night Liv and I had a fight, as usual over my disinterest in sex... She gave me my ummm boy parts back and she expected me to use them, even suggesting I did it in public to get used to it. I yelled at her saying I wasnt going to humiliate myself just for her enjoyment and we got into a huge fight and she stormed off. That didnt help my fever much but I didnt care, I was more worried about keeping her from being too mad at me.

I finally got her to come back, and we talked things out. I did the best I could to make her happy without violating my ideals, and she seemed a little calmer. It wasntlong though before I passed into sleep from the fever I'd gotten a day or so earlier.

When I woke Liv was watching over me, and we spent the day like that with her feeding me and just generally taking great care of me. We talked for a while and she was still wanting to find out why I'd chosen to remain a virgin. The discussion got rather heated and she became quite demanding. I told her that my morals were simply against it, that it was my choice, and that if morality was a cage I lived in I meant to keep within it.

I guess being a succubus she wouldnt quite understand the desire to keep to ones morals, or perhaps she would, Liv isnt a bad sort after all and she does have her share of goodness... I don't know, it was just so hard trying to explain my own beliefs because theres a lot to it. I suppose mostly I dont want to grow up and be like my father and so many other males, or to grow up at all. I don't want to run off after having my way with a woman and I don't want to lose the innocence and youth that make me who I am.

I finally just threw a temper tantrum, but Live calmed me down as usual and took care of me. I had to cooperate while she took my temperature, which was still elevated, and then I fell asleep laying against her after she made me say I'd stay in bed and avoid the underdark.