Sick

My writing is a bit squiggly as I take this down. I've lost a lot of blood and I'm sick to my stomach over something related to that. Let me explain. Last night two of the princesses, as well as Sabe, were captured by the drow. Tool and Valkryn came around to accuse another of the princesses of plotting against thoe who had been taken and generally act all big and bad cuz they could pick on girls. I tried to get them to stop and help me to rescue the princesses, but no such luck.
Sabe was able to contact me and when he heard Juliette was taken he got free and decided to try to rescue her. On his own. In the middle of the drow city. Naturally I had to try to back him up but the queen had noone else to send with me. In the end only Rowena and Wraith came with me. The queen was going to come but then decided not to so I commandeered some guards and went in.

We were assailed by a squadron of drow much larger than us. They were on guard thanks to Sabe's escape attempt but we were able to defeat them. I was wounded and we suffered losses significant enough that we couldn't persue our goals any further and had to retreat. I could dealw ith that.

But when I returned, near to passing out from blood loss I found the greatest wound of all. I bowed to the queen wiht great effort and made a report, to which she said nothing. Only the king and Rowena showed much concern, but when I came to I was still on the floor in the hall and the queen was chatting idly with some gypsy.

Savar helped me to my feet and as soon as I was strong enough I cursed her and forsook her service before stalking off to my tower. I'm going to have to return to the underdark to save Sabe (if he's still alive) but the queen's family is no longer my concern.

Some might not understand why it matters so much. But when you're an adventurer for a living just a few words, maybe a kiss on the cheek or a place of honor, someone to tend to your wounds, is the best reward you can get. It's not as though I'm in the business for the money. Just about everyone I know is gone and the only way people will ever pay attention to me is for me to become a hero like I was before.

I've made my efforts and struggled, even though I'm mostly fighting alone now, and after last night's battle where I led Dragonshire's forces against the Drow and orcs, and now this... and just to have it all go unnoticed... I almost feel like I should have died back in Kielder with everyone else I knew.