In loving memory

My mother... Foxxy died recently. Just this week... Athena won't tell me whats happened... I don't want to talk about this really. I don't have to since this is my diary and all...

Imoen and Velrik are supposed to be pretty shaken up about it. I havnt seen them since I was little. I sent a messanger to them asking them to come see me cuz I know Velrik blames himself. In a way I do as well.

It gets so lonely in Maerimydra. Mes has been the only one who really talked to me since it happened though Viconia appeared briefly. Viconia is a friend of Velrik and Imoen's I kind of know.

Eventually I got tired of moping around and went to dragonshire. It just gets so lonely in Maerimydra. I guess really its lonely wherever I go. I wanna go home and sit beside Nic. My friends all come to visit me, except for Velrik Imoen and Nic, but it seems like such a bother when they come and I hate to inconvenience people and its never quite the same...

Anyhow I went to Dragonshire and saw Carey. She said she'd like to adopt me because thats what my mom would have wanted... And worse yet Mes also wants to adopt me and I feel like Mes is kinda like my mother but Carey's always looked after me... In any event though I'll always remember my mom, and I don't mean Alex either...

Alexzandria kind of disappeared after months of saying she was leaving me she just decided to do it... I guess you really cant trust someone who buys you from your sister and then claims to love you...

Well anyhow I talked to Mes and Carey and I dunno what to do theres just too much going on. I have the worst luck with parents and it hurts so much that the people I most want to confide in aren't around. I wonder what my father would think if he was still around.

I keep getting off subject, I cant make sense of any of this it just hurts too much. I want to go home, and I want my mom to be alive again. But I'll try to keep going and make sense of things.

I'll try to get in touch with Velrik and Imoen. I miss them a lot and I dont want either of them to be sad. I keep remembering how much fun we had together before they left but I know none of whats happened is because they left and I just want to let them know that and more than anything to be with my friends again.

I need to get to sleep, I'll write more later maybe.